&& it was like BAM!

How do I explain this? It's unbelievable how things all happen at once whether it's good or bad, it just seems to happen all at once. There are 2 major things that may just make my head explode….

1. My Titi (Grandma) got admitted into the hospital
   
2. I love my Leah
   

Today at around 4 o clock my Titi was admitted into the hospital. Simply because she refused to let anyone help her, and was threatening. I mean sure I know it comes along with the brain tumor but still it was insane. At this point I can't tell what's what. If it's the tumor or really her, it just makes me feel sad inside knowing that I can't help her. So I began to write this at the hospital but it became to crazy. So quick update… they found another tumor in her lung and now they say most likely that the tumors are cancerous but we won't know for sure until they take biopsy. So time once again has left me waiting…

 

Oh mee God Leah if you could read you'd understand, but you're a child and you don't understand why daddy is acting weird but when I look at you and say everything's going to be alright it's going to be all right. Johnny.. frankly idk what you want me to do… Damn… I'd do anything for her.. && now you put me in some stupid as position like this. Either the both of you or nothing… don't be greedy… because you know I love her more than any other person in this universe maybe even more than you do…

 

Ugghs soo fuckin pissed can't even write this stupid thing ne more… OUT!!! for a walk…